im afraid ive stopped making sense

my minds going too fast, its been going like this for about a month now, and im afraid ive completely stopped making sense.
its all i can do to shut my mind up long enough to sleep, let alone try to talk to people. this is why you havent seem me in awhile.
(look, watch the breakdown in real time, there she goes)
i have entire conversations completely out of context. i can see your raised eyebrows - but you must know you dont have to do that, right? you must know. whose standard are you measuring me against? has it made you happy? does that ability to judge make you happy? you look so small and i want to help you see that youre bigger. you can be bigger. anybody can.
id better move to the woods before i get locked up again. i cant take any more time institution-time.