guilt

i accidentally stood somebody up last night. i took a shower and got dressed and meant to just close my eyes for 20 minutes and slept until 9:30 this morning. i feel awful about it - i think this one has some integrity and im really enjoying learning about him and i stood him up for a date that's been planned for three days. also we have a trip planned in a few weeks - we'll see what happens.

ive been instructed to wear a cocktail dress tonight, as its 'date night' at the strip club. adorable.

more importantly - kelsey's coming tonight! she's the greatest and im very much looking forward to it.

also, rain + small apartment + big dog = smelly apartment

as im writing this i think im ending the best relationship ive ever had with another person. i dont know. i think itll make both of our lives better, but it sure sucks.

sometimes you know right when you wake up that the day is going to hurt all the way through.