short fiction, three

(note: names have been removed to protect our doomed characters' dignity)


green american apparel boxer briefs with white elastic waistband, from ( )'s suitcase, ( ) hotel, los angeles california, mid-june 2010

pair of long denim pants, rolled to ankle-length and also at the waist, with a larqe square of navy and white pinstripe denim sewed with red thread to the bottom of a much larger hole in the left knee, also traced in broken red stitches. the pants are more successfully patched with the navy and white pinstripe denim at the left hip and right knee. no apparent attempt has been made to patch the growing tear in the upper right seat of the pants. they are from ( )'s extensive collection of denim pants, obtained the night i left his apartment on ( ) ave and ( ) street, above that porn store, for florida in december 2009.
green american apparel boxer briefs with white elastic waistband, from ( )'s suitcase, ( ) hotel, los angeles california, mid-june 2010.
white athletic sock.
ankle-height ribbed wool sock.
grey hanes t-shirt with the collar torn out and the front pocket partially ripped off by ( ), most likely from a night i crashed at his loft in ( ).
green hoodie, from rags-a-go-go on west 14th street in manhattan.
red beret i insisted ( ) lend to me one night as i left her apartment because i was coked off my face and it was cold outside. that must have been january or february 2011 and i havent given it back yet, though i intend to.
pair of frye brown leather ankle height motorcycle boots, size US 6.5, given to me as a christmas by parents when i was 15.

grey cotton jersey jumpsuit with tapered ankles and skinny shoulder straps, purchased with bio-mom while i was in california for spring break, we spent that whole day deciding for ourselves what we wanted and actually doing it. we were free and powerful and it made us happy. two days later i was too sad to look at her and had to go home.
pair of red canvas tom's, size US 6.5, purchased on that same day with bio-mom, mid july 2011. she'd been trying to convince me to get some for a long time and im glad i finally consented. toms donates a pair of shows for every pair purchased. it does make me sad that i never just buy poor children shoes and i basically had to be bribed to help, but its only catholics who think that the motivation behind a kindness is as important as the kind act itself.
one boy scout navy blue long sleeve button-down uniform short made for a first, or maybe second, grade boy. the patch on the left upper arm depicts the skyline of toledo ohio. found at the goodwill society on the east side of toledo ohio. toledo troop one. the sleeves are rolled to elbow length.

pair of hanes navy thermal long underwear for men, purchased at a thrift store in a ski town in mammoth national park, where i spent time during the summer of 2010 with bio-mama and that side of the family.
pair of long denim pants, rolled to ankle-length and also at the waist, with a larqe square of navy and white pinstripe denim sewed with red thread to the bottom of a much larger hole in the left knee, also traced in broken red stitches. the pants are more successfully patched with the navy and white pinstripe denim at the left hip and right knee. no apparent attempt has been made to patch the growing tear in the upper right seat of the pants. they are from ( )'s extensive collection of denim pants, obtained the night i left his apartment on ( ) ave and ( ) street, above that porn store, for florida in december 2009.
maroon long-sleeved thermal t shirt, found one morning of summer 2009 on the floor of a williamsburg loft i shared with a rotating clan of kids.
one blue flannel from a portland, oregon goodwill, purchased while i was celebrating my 21st birthday traveling with ( ).
green eisenhower jacket, another birthday gift from my parents in 2009, also from rags-a-go-go on 14th st in manhattan.
pair of frye brown leather ankle height motorcycle boots, size US 6.5, given to me as a christmas by parents when i was 15.
brown corduroy backpack that ive had since 2001. i dont remember its origin.

double-length string of authentic pearls, looped three times around my neck. they were a gift from my father for starting columbia. they arrived in the mail at the end of my first week of classes.
black silk b-cup bra from victoria's secret, my first and only real bra. my mom bought it for me to wear to "job interviews, or presentations... you have to have at least one bra, alex. please." the left strap has lost its elasticity and tends to fall, and the cups are stiff enough, and large enough, that they create an empty gap in front of my tits leaving my nipples visible to anyone tall enough to peer in.
black cotton panties with a lace waistband, ruched down the middle of the back. these panties tend to be a crowd pleaser. audiences tend to like them.
one pair of sheer black thigh-high stockings with a seam down the back and wide lace bands at the top of each to cover the strips of sticky rubber that holds them up. they're both covered in snags, runs, and holes to the point of near-disintegration.
pair of black patent leather platform louboutin stilletos, size US 6.5, a christmas / welcome-home gift from bio-mama on my first christmas with them, last year in 2010.

pair of hanes navy thermal long underwear for men, purchased at a thrift store in a ski town in mammoth national park, where i spent time summer 2010 with bio-mama and that side of the family.
pair of long denim pants, rolled to ankle-length and also at the waist, with a larqe square of navy and white pinstripe denim sewed with red thread to the bottom of a much larger hole in the left knee, also traced in broken red stitches. the pants are more successfully patched with the navy and white pinstripe denim at the left hip and right knee. no apparent attempt has been made to patch the growing tear in the upper right seat of the pants. they are from ( )'s extensive collection of denim pants, obtained the night i left his apartment on ( ) ave and ( ) street, above that porn store, for florida in december 2009.
maroon long-sleeved thermal t shirt, found one morning of summer 2009 on the floor of a williamsburg loft i shared with a rotating clan of kids.
one blue flannel from a portland, oregon goodwill, purchased while i was celebrating my 21st birthday traveling with ( ).
green eisenhower jacket, another birthday gift from my parents in 2009, also from rags-a-go-go on 14th st in manhattan.
pair of frye brown leather ankle height motorcycle boots, size US 6.5, given to me as a christmas by parents when i was 15.
brown corduroy backpack that ive had since 2001. i dont remember its origin.

one blue cotton bath towel.

one pair men's calvin klein boxer briefs, pink, with purple paisley-style designs and waistband. these belong to ( ). i borrowed them from him when went directly to his apartment from gogo dancing at st jerome's (may have been trash) one night in december 2009 because i didnt want to sleep in sequined hot pants. when he lent them to me he looked right into me and told me this pair is not only his favorite - its endowed with sentimental value. he made me swear not to keep them. dont worry, ( ), i haven't forgotten, and ill give them back. i swear.